I dont mind spendin everyday, standing out on your corner in the pouring rain. Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay a while. <3

I ruined everything with Kendra. Nothing's the same anymore. I guess i have no chance with anyone. She's obviously NOT intrested. -Sigh-

Christmas!

Merry Christmas, Happy Belated Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa.
:).

Heyo.

I'm bored.
:P
Zach: "Ricky, Ricky Ricky. Come 'ere. Take a seat" (At lunch).
Me: "sup?"
Zach: "You know that girl that sits next to you in band?"
Me: "Michelle?"
Z: "No the other one.. . the one that sits next to Robbie."
M: "Abby?"
z: "Yeah Yeah. She's fallin for you. She likes you"
M: "Haha. Okay".
Z: blah blah blah other stuff other stuff. .

Woot!. :D

Idk what to title this. :D

Today was the first day i've ever seen Weed, in person. First day i smelled it to. BLEH! No thank you!
I don't remember what else i was going to post. :/
When it comes to me, i'll post it.

Whoa

I learned alot about two people today. I never thought these things would happen to them.

My new favorite blog, Postsecret. Haha.

I believe i have two personalities.
Sometimes i realize, wow, i do this to myself?? then other times i'm like, this is the only thing to do, this is me.

I'm confused.

UP changed my life

I watched the first 15 minutes of up.
I will NOT be able to live after my wife dies.
Impossible.

Jesus.

Wooow.
I haven't been here in forever.

Watch this.

I laughed so hard when i saw this on Rob & Big the other night.
WATCH IT
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsvDvEatBUs&NR=1&feature=fvwp

Title less

i walked into my room
turned on the light,
moved to my dresser and opened the drawer,
i pushed away some clothes, untill i find i,
i se the silver delight,
i see the blue handle
i pick up the knife,
and feel the red teeth,
what have i done to deserve this?
i whisper to myself,
one last time,
i took the knife and held it firm,
move my hand back to me,
i see the red,
the trickle of blood,
now i changed,
i'm happy again.

Recently..

Things in my life have been really bad.
I've done some things to myself, But i'm getting over it. Finding new ways.
I have asked my mom for therapy, or help. But she said no. and i've cut since then, 3 times.
I need someone to help, find a better way

I'm back.

Sorry to anyone who actually read this.
I'm going to continue Updating from now on.
I will have a very detailed post tomorrow.

Thanks to anyone who actually reads..

Friends?

Are they really friends?
It doesn't seem like it.
Friends don't laugh at you.
Friends respect you.
Friends don't make fun of you.

Then i guess......

I'm hardly talking in school anymore.
The main person who gets me to talk is Dylan. That's because i like her. As a friend.
Thats because she's nice.
She won't laugh, or make fun of me.

We laugh at the same things.
And Smile all 6th and 7th hour.
Thats the only class i "open up"
Because she sits across from me.

Thank you Dylan.

Lately

Its been so crazy lately.
Just everything in the world is happening.
I am in Love, and she loves me back.
Its a great feeling.
To know that someone cares about you.

Spring break

I have been on break this week, and im on vacation so thats why i haven't posted.

Im still writing my story,, which i don't want to, but i gotta finish it.

So yeah

Sick

Its Wednessday, im sick.
Gotta stay home. Blah :P

Oh well.

Lost

This is something I wrote for Language Arts today. I don't know if its that good, but i like it.

Lost

As I shiver in my coat,
while the wind blows through the trees,
though I stand there alone,
I shouldn't be lost in a forest alone.

Unless my parents don't care,
wherever they are Im sure they do,
because ive been gone,
its getting colder and night is falling.

If i knew my way i would be home,
because the fire is warm,
whenever it is cold we light the logs,
i wish i was home and not alone.

My Gift

Some say it's a gift, Others are just amazed. I do not know how or why, but it just happens. Am I an angel from Heaven? Or a 1 in the world? I do not know.

It is hard to put into words, even spectators can't explain.
My spirit leaves, and finds someone who is sad, depressed, or angry. It sends those feelings back to my body. And I experince them all. The depression of a friend turned away, the nervousness of something way out of the ordinary, I can feel it all, but its NOT MINE.

This isn't my feeling, but someone elses, I feel their emotion, and I take it away. I take it out of their body. I leave them happy, and wondering where their sad has gone.

They say they feel a presence, of what I believe is my spirit, my soul, going to them, and making them better.

Again, its something you have to see, something to witness. Its happened over the Internet, to people states and states away. I can find them.

I, can find them

A Friends poem.

This is a piece my friend wrote. She got in trouble by School teachers as well as her parents for writing this.
I think it is a great piece of work. So i wanted to share it with you.

Originally Posted by skigirl1000
Jump
I felt the wind on my face
Icy and raw
I felt the cold in my bones
Making me shiver
I felt the tears in my eyes
Threatening to poor out
And freeze on my face
My thoughts were horrible
Pessimistic
I felt arms wrap around me
Hug me to keep me warm
I tried to shrug them away
I’d rather be cold
My t-shirt was too thin
And I too skinny
My completion too pale
Cool and sickly I stood with my toes on the edge
Looking out over the lake
A million miles beneath this cliff
I was going to do it
I had nothing else to do
I was going to jump
And embrace my death

Today

Today.

Today was alright, A normal tuesday.
I got a "warning" for being late to 6th hour today.
Our lunch teachers held the whole group back.

I am starting to write a story.
Its about a 14 year old girl, who is going to die the day before her birthday, by being drowned by her friend on accident.
I will post it when its finished.

I want...

I want to live in a place where you can pick your age, and stay that young for as long as you want
Where music is playing from the flowers in the park.
There are no money problems, because living will cost nothing.
You and your family are always happy and having fun.

I want to live in a place full of sun.
Where the temperature never goes below 60, but never goes past 90.
Where i can swim anyday.
Or lay in the park and listen to music.

This is the place, where I want to live.

Misunderstanding

We have all heard the saying "Eat your food, there are starving kids in china."

The fact-of-the-matter is that there are starving children everywhere. Not just in china.

This is why i don't understand the concept of this popular quote.
From what i know, Kids were starving ever since the first child set foot on earth. So why would this have to stay in china? Do people in china say "Eat your food, there are starving kids in America"?

Hi!

Hey,
Im Ricky!

This is going to be one of my favorite things to do in just a short while as i get things going.